Who Am I? Larping after motherhood

Here I am again. After a year without writting anything. A year full of new experience, as our little Gorgon came into our lives and change them forever. The path to motherhood hasn’t been easy. At least to my identity.

The little Gorgon workshipping Cthulu.

In my social media I used to describe myself as “Historian. PhD in Archaeology. Larp designer.” Being a larp designer and a larper was a huge part of my identity, of how I see myself. But from the moment I got pregnant I could only play a couple of larps (if you’re interested in my experience I wrote about it here), and I couldn’t organise any.

I had a really rough pregnancy. The morning sickness stayed with me until the morning I gave birth. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t do anything. I felt as I was a total fake, half a person. I really wanted to create, it was important to me, but it was impossible.

And the little Gorgon didn’t make it easier when he arrived to us last November. Don’t get me wrong. I love my little one, it’s the best thing that ever happened to me, but it isn’t easy to be a new mother, leaving in a country in which you don’t have any family or social support. And it’s even worst when you have high expectations of yourself, and you want to do things, but you spend your days cluster-feeding the little one.

Luckily, I haven’t suffered from post-natal depression. I have been more active. But I have to be clear. In this 8 months, I only had time for one thing: taking care of the baby. No archaeological digs, no published articles, no larps, no larp writting. Anything. And in those moments, you don’t feel like a human-being, you feel like a milk-cow. A machine make to fulfill your kindred’s needs. Nothing more. And life should be more than that.

I have tried to write a larp for months, I have the ideas. But I haven’t got the energy to transform those ideas into reality. But it’s time to change that. Now I’m a little stronger, I have change the way I think about it, so I set little objectives.

And the first one is… being able to larp with the little one!

I’m still breastfeeding him, and I intent to do it for a while. So… he has to be with me all the time. And that’s a challenge. But with the help of the community I can do it or I hope to.

Lethe, Queen of Forgiveness (Nobilis Larp)

The first step has been to play two on-line larp scenes from the amazing larp “Nobilis” created by the talented Marina Peonía and her team. She was the one that believe that I coudl larp from England and with a baby. She adapted everything to it. And I’m so grateful. Those two scenes made me confident to try what I’m trying to do next weekend: playing two larps with the little one there.

And I will write about it here, I hope.

Mirella Machancoses.




Larp and pregnancy

Hey! I have good news! Our little Gorgona’s family it’s increasing! A little Gorgon it’s to be born in November, and that has given myself, the mum-to-be, a new perspective about the problems of larping and gender.

I’ve been talking about this issue for a while with some friends and in some general groups of feminist larpers, but I want to share my own and new experience 😉

OMG! I’m pregnant and I have a larp this week!

I think that was the first thing I thought when I new it. I had to take a plane in two hours, that would begin a journey of 10 days, visiting three different countries, with an amazing ending, my first College of Wizardry experience.

My head was full of doubts. I was in so early state that I almost has no symptoms (luckily!!) but I was more tired than usual. In addition, it was before the three months barrier, so the risk of miscarriages it’s huge. My mind was spinning with questions, but I was decided to not let the pregnancy avoid the developing of my normal life.

So there we went. Fortunately I was travelling with my husband and we had been assigned to a double room, so I could rest if necessary. My first question, once arrived was if I should inform the organisation and my co-players (the closest ones). Finally, I decided to tell it only to the organisation, so they could know of my condition in case of a medical emergency. That’s what I would love to happen in my larps, and so I did. I didn’t talk with my co-players but one, as it was too early and I didn’t want the news to spread, just in case something got wrong…

As it was a no-contact larp, the risks about an accident were minimal. The only problem was getting too into the character that you forget that you need to drink and eat periodically. And, well, of course, that I was so tired that climbing the stairs from one part of the castle to the other was really hard. And I had to forget also staying late at night, including the afterparty.

All in all, it was an amazing experience. I loved the larp. I would have written a review in the moment, but I didn’t know how to separate it from my new maternity discovery… so I had to wait until now 😉

Lisbeth von Essen, my semi-faun character of CoW12. Photography: Defy Gravity

In the meanwhile… the sickness

I had a horrible first three months of pregnancy. Luckily they worst was just in between the two larps I had planned before knowing the news. Sickness, tiredness, lack of energy… So I was really worried about being part of Harem, the next larp I had planned.

So I talked to Muriel, the organizer of the larp, and she told me not to worry. I could be part of the larp without problem (I wasn’t the first pregnant women in taking part of it), and I could rest as much as I needed. Even though, I was feeling really bad and I kept praying for being better for that moment (I would be 14 weeks pregnant, so it was supposed to get better…).

One funny thing about being pregnant if you’re a larper is that the first people to know about your pregnancy are your organizers. It had happened to me when I was an organizer (some pregnant friend having to tell me it before the others friends), and I did the same when my time came. Priorities, I guess 😉

And now… Harem son Saat

Luckily, I got better the week before Harem. We had a trip planned to Paris and I was able to enjoy it. I should take it easy, but I could do the basic things, and I was strong enough for going to the larp.

Before hand, I was worried about my character. In the casting process, I had asked for a dramatic character, that suffers the death of her son and has a bad relation with her daughter. So mother-child issues was the main issue of my game. But it wasn’t the same being pregnant myself. I had to be careful with the bleed of the character.

Surprisingly, I was able to play it a lot better than I thought. My character was sad all the larp, and her ending was quite tragic (It’s the first time ever I decided to kill my character in a larp due to her desperation). In fact, Aysel taught me a lot about maternity. When the larp has ended I was more confident about myself. I guess it’s difficult to be worst mother than she was 😉

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My character (Aysel) in Harem son Saat. Photography: Jérôme Verdier

Other of the most beautiful things about this larp was that, for the first time, as the three first months were finished, I was able to be open in public about the pregnancy. I told it during the workshops, so all the players and NPCs knew about it and they could act in consequence. It was a marvelous experience. I was never more supported as a player. They took care of me, asked me if I was ok, and organisers/NPCs drove me between the two locations if I was too tired to walk. People, you were so great! You made me feel welcome and protected, and that’s amazing when you’re in a vulnerable position.

One of the brief moments of “happiness” with her daughter.  Photography: Jérôme Verdier

In addition, the larp made me realise another big thing about me and the baby. I’m an amateur belly dancer but I haven’t dance for a while when the larp began. But, as I was feeling so sad (well, my character was, but you know, the bleed 😉 )and oriental music was playing, I had the urgent need to express the grief through dancing. And it was a marvelous therapy both for me and the character. I finally even danced in public (improvising, that it’s always a difficult thing for me), and I was so happy with the results. I felt so connected with my baby through the dancing that I decided to keep dancing out of the larp, everyday.

All in all, Harem son Saat was, maybe, the best larp I’ve ever played. And being pregnant in it was a marvelous experience that I will repeat again. I’m sorry for not writing a more traditional review about it, but there are some really good ones that you can read as Mo’s, (I will try to have time and write a little about the similarities/differences with our style of larp).


La mirada feminista en el rol en vivo


Mirella Machancoses López (1)

Artículo basado en la participación en Entrerevs 2016


El artículo pretende centrar su mirada en la problemática de género que atañe al rol en vivo, principalmente en España. En él se recorrerán tanto los problemas internos (actitudes machistas, número de plazas ofertadas…) como los recursos que nos ofrece este medio para concienciar sobre el feminismo.


En un primer momento, al plantearme la realización de una ponencia para EntreRevs 2016, el tema surgió solo: el feminismo. La reciente publicación en mi blog personal de una serie de artículos (2) sobre la grandísima experiencia que supuso dirigir algunos vivos del compendio #Feminism: A nano Game Anthology (3), me había hecho concienciarme sobre el vivo como medio de educación para el feminismo.

Sin embargo, pocas semanas antes de la ponencia, nuestra comunidad fue sacudida por la polémica en torno al machismo inherente en ella. Sobre esta polémica hablaremos más adelante pero fue el motivo para ampliar la presentación, y este artículo, e incluir un análisis sobre la situación interna que vivimos.

Por otra parte, no quiero entrar aquí en definiciones sobre feminismo, machismo o género, ya que las considero ampliamente abordadas en otros foros, mucho más competentes que yo en este aspecto.

Y una última advertencia, voy a hablar claro. Igual que lo hice en la charla, tal y como espero que podáis ver en breves en el canal de EntreRevs. No voy a callarme y voy a llamar a las cosas por su nombre: violación, machismo, acoso.

El presente artículo se dividirá en dos vertientes que he considerado claras y muy diferenciadas. La primera, lo que he llamado “lucha interna”. Éstos son los problemas a los que se enfrenta nuestra subcultura (4) en materia de igualdad entre los hombres y las mujeres tanto en su acceso al hobby como en el transcurso del mismo.

El segundo campo es la “lucha externa”, es decir, el cómo podemos usar los roles en vivo como herramientas de difusión de problemáticas relacionadas con el feminismo. En este caso, influiríamos en situaciones ajenas a nuestra subcultura. Es lo que se ha venido llamando en algunos foros larptivisim (larp+activismo), que puede ser usado tanto en este como en otros frentes (derechos lgtbi, inmigración…).



  • La lucha feminista en el ámbito interno


Es necesario luchar contra el sexismo en todas las esferas de la sociedad, y esto incluye nuestros medios de ocio, en este caso, el larp. Y es que la mayoría de problemas que encontramos en la cultura mayoritaria, pueden trasladarse con facilidad a una subcultura, sin que ni siquiera nos demos cuenta de estar calcando estos patrones de comportamiento.

Intentando centrarnos en nuestros problemas, nos encontramos con barreras de accesibilidad, discriminaciones, micromachismos, acoso e incluso violaciones. Y sí, ha habido violaciones en el entorno de los roles en vivo españoles, así como sonados casos internacionales.

Por tanto, lo que nos debemos plantear es qué debemos hacer en estos casos. La solución debe pasar por dos frentes. El primero de ellos, afrontar juntos, como comunidad, los retos que se nos plantean. El segundo, buscar soluciones problema a problema. Poniendo un pequeño grano de arena cada uno se puede llegar lejos.


1.1. De un comentario cualquiera a la guerra abierta

Para ilustrar esto, voy a usar la problemática reciente citada en la introducción. En un post de facebook del grandísimo Ricard Ibáñez -autor del juego de rol Aquelarre- se planteaba la paradoja entre que hubiese más lectoras femeninas y, sin embargo, menos jugadoras de rol (en general, tanto en mesa como en vivo) (Fig. 1).

Fig.1: Post inicial de Ricard Ibáñez en Facebook.

La discusión consiguiente rozó el absurdo en algunas ocasiones, y fue larga y compleja. Cientos de comentarios y los comentarios a los comentarios hacen casi imposible seguirla en su totalidad u, obviamente, reseñarla toda aquí. Así pues, he seleccionado algunos comentarios que me impactaron especialmente y que permiten ilustrar los casos reseñados anteriormente (5).

El primero de ellos (Fig. 2) señala que, cuando hay mujeres presentes, los hombres “juegan raro”. El comentario me parece doblemente machista ya que parece que los hombres sean seres que sólo respondan a su líbido, totalmente incapaces de comportarse ante la presencia de una mujer. Además, plantea la incomodidad en el acceso para muchas mujeres. Y, para finalizar, y casi lo más grave de todo, la utilización de un meme machista para zanjar cualquier posibilidad de diálogo. No hay nada más frustrante en un debate que ese tipo de comportamientos.

Fig.2: Secuencia de comentarios en el post referido en la fig.1, relativos al comportamiento de los hombres en las partidas con presencia femenina.


En la misma línea del sucumbir a los impulsos sexuales como excusa, encontramos el siguiente fragmento de discusión (Fig. 3). Los chistes sobre el físico se usan no sólo para aligerar la conversación si no que distraen del tema primigenio, copando una discusión hasta entonces seria. Y si alguien se atreve a ponerle algún límite, se suelta el clásico “estamos de broma, tú no entiendes de esto”. Hay bromas que hacen daño a la subcultura que estamos creando, y las machistas son gran parte de esto.

Fig.3: Secuencia de comentarios en el post referido en la fig.1

Pero para acabar de rematar el tema físico, aparece el siguiente trozo (fig. 4). Y esto es una demostración de que el comportamiento machista se da tanto en hombres como mujeres. Según la autora del comentario, las mujeres no entramos en el rol en vivo debido a la imagen que tenemos de nosotras mismas y del hobby, y nuestro único interés es parecer atractivas. Increíble.

Fig.4: Secuencia de comentarios en el post referido en la fig.1

Pero siguiendo para bingo nos encontramos con que en tres comentarios se puede dar acoso, discriminación y excusar al machismo (fig. 5). Y es que no se puede excusar el machismo acusando de infantilismo a los que generan un problema. Hay que llamar a las cosas por su nombre.

Fig.5: Secuencia de comentarios en el post referido en la fig.1.

Otros dos problemas surgen a continuación (fig. 6): el número de plazas disponibles para cada género, y la posibilidad del travestismo. En cuanto al primero de ellos, lo trataremos y analizaremos más adelante, por lo que no entraré en mayores apreciaciones. El segundo, sin embargo, despierta en mí una lucha que llevamos años haciendo desde Gorgona.

Fig.6: Secuencia de comentarios en el post referido en la fig.1

Hay en eventos en los que que el actor represente el mismo género que su personaje, es importante, mientras que en muchos otros no. Siempre desde la seriedad conocemos mil ejemplos de personas que han interpretado personajes de otros sexos y, con una buena caracterización e interpretación, esto enriquece la experiencia de los jugadores, tal y como veremos en una parte del apartado dos.

Ya casi para terminar con esto, ¡o casi!, vemos como se intenta deslegitimar el debate interno recurriendo a la excusa de que también sucede en el mundo exterior (fig. 7). Además, se incluye en el debate la imposibilidad de cambiar las cosas-. Parece que, si se discute y se intenta debatir, eres un polemista que pierde su tiempo. Pues no, educar es importante, pero a todas las edades. Con que una persona hubiese aprendido algo de todo ese debate, ya hubiese merecido la pena el esfuerzo.

Fig. 7: Secuencia de comentarios en el post referido en la fig.1

Y sobre todo, se hace muy duro entrar en este tipo de debates cuando eres una mujer. Los continuos ataques que recibes por expresar tu punto de vista hacen que, al final, no quieras perder el tiempo en ellos (Fig.8). Y yo, la primera de ellos. Por ello pido disculpas a todas aquellas que me estén leyendo y a las que no he ayudado en esas eternas discusiones. Y gracias a todos los que sí ayudaron, los que nos defendieron e hicieron que esa conversación fuese un poco más soportable.

Fig.8: Secuencia de comentarios en el post referido en la fig.1


1.2. La igualdad en las plazas, ¿verdad o mentira?

Debido al debate referido en la sección 1.1., decidí averiguar qué hay de verdad y de mentira en la desigualdad por sexos dentro del mundo del rol en vivo. Para ello, pedí a unas cuantas organizaciones veteranas que me pasasen los datos que tuviesen sobre el porcentaje de asistencia a sus vivos (6).

En el gráfico (fig. 09) se puede observar que el porcentaje de asistencia varía mucho de unos a otros eventos. Aquí entran a colación diversas variables: el número de plazas ofrecidas de cada sexo vs. la libertad de inscripción, la duración de los vivos, las temáticas y el tipo de organización. Los vivos más interpretativos suelen atraer un mayor porcentaje de mujeres, así como los de temática histórica o distópica/futurista.

Número total de inscrito masculinos/femeninos en una serie de vivos a cuyos datos se ha podido acceder. No existen datos sobre personas no binarias.

Espero en un futuro, contando con datos de más asociaciones, poder completar este análisis. De momento, podemos quedarnos con partidas como “Hasta que la Mafia nos separe” donde hubo un 70% de mujeres en inscripción aunque el porcentaje final se quedó en un 55%. Así pues, el interés existe. Debemos plantearnos porqué algunas partidas las frenan más.


1.3. ¿Y qué podemos hacer con esto?

Pero sin focalizarnos en lo negativo, hay una serie de cuestiones que nos podemos plantear para mejorar la situación de la mujer en nuestra subcultura:

  • No repitas los estereotipos sobre las jugadoras: Las jugadoras no somos un trozo de carne. No somos una rareza. Las bromas sexistas son basura, no nos hacen gracia y ensucian el ambiente. No somos orcos del infierno porque hayamos decidido jugar al rol. no jugamos peor ni estamos menos capacitadas físicamente. Simplemente, tratanos como personas.
  • Los personajes: Cuando crees tu evento, huye de los típicos “personajes femeninos”. Mira que todos tengan suficientes cosas que hacer. Si usas dinámicas machistas en la partida, que sea para reflexionar sobre ello, no por desconocimiento. Aborda abiertamente los temas femeninos: regla, maternidad, lucha de géneros… Haz personajes masculinos fuera del estereotipo (ellos también pueden preocuparse por la maternidad, ser sensibles, vivir de su mujer…). Consulta a tus jugadoras qué opinan de tus partidas y de cómo enfocas sus personajes. Y, si es posible, cuenta con organizadoras femeninas en tu equipo. La pluralidad siempre es buena.
  • Cuando una mujer se exprese, escucha: Muchas veces, el llamado “mansplaining” sucede de manera inconsciente, aún así, hay que intentar evitarlo. Si sois jugadores, no uséis vuestra voz para imponeros. Antes de hablar, piensa, ¿ella sabrá más que yo? Igual os sorprende y es doctora en la materia de la que estáis hablando. Escucha sus respuestas antes de seguir con tu discurso. Esto sirve tanto para fuera como para dentro de juego (es una de las quejas de jugadoras más habituales).
  • No es no, sí es sí: Buscar el consentimiento antes de realizar una acción física es necesario. para aquellos vivos que vayan a requerir contacto de forma habitual, es indispensable hacer un taller de límites y palabras de seguridad para que todo el mundo se sienta cómodo. También conviene tener unas reglas estrictas para el que sobrepase los límites.
  • Sé un aliado: Necesitas ayudar a las mujeres que se sientan en una situación comprometida. Escucha, comprende, ayuda. Sé abierto de mente, aunque no lo hayas vivido sí puede existir. Tened en cuenta que si una mujer se decide a denunciar o hablar de un tema grave como el acoso o la violación es porque ha sobrepasado mucho su límite.



  • Larptivismo y feminismo


La segunda parte de este artículo versa sobre la lucha externa que podemos ejercer desde el rol en vivo para ayudar a las causas feministas. Es una herramienta excelente para concienciar, educar y ayudar a la sociedad. Así, pues, usémosla.

¿Cómo podemos realizar esto? De maneras variadas: reivindicando figuras históricas, hablando del comienzo del feminismo, poniendo el foco en el machismo y su yugo, tratando problemas machistas actuales, usando ucronías en las que las desigualdades de género funcionan de maneras diferentes…

Intentaré ilustrar esto con ejemplos provenientes de algunos roles en vivo a los que he podido asistir o que, incluso, he dirigido.


2.1. Historia del feminismo

La historia del feminismo es uno de los clásicos dentro del rol en vivo. Bastantes eventos ambientados a finales del XIX o principios del siglo XX contemplan, de algún modo, esta primera ola del feminismo que llevó a la mujer al voto. Esto puede realizarse desde diversas perspectivas.

El ejemplo que más me ha impactado al respecto ha sido Fairweather Manor (7), al que puede asistir en su primer pase (noviembre 2016). Una de las decisiones más acertadas en cuanto al diseño del evento, fue elegir una serie de temas en los cuáles tu personaje debía tomar una opción: el imperio, las vanguardias, el matrimonio… Y, entre ellos, estaba el sufragismo.

En la guía de diseño (fig. 10) se hacía un pequeño resumen de la situación en la que se encontraba el tema, así como un resumen de las dos opiniones principales a las que se podía acoger tu personaje, en este caso, a favor o en contra del voto. Esto dio pie a numerosas e interesantes conversaciones sobre el tema, que además tuve el placer de disfrutar ya que yo interpreté a un personaje sufragista conocido por sus obras al respecto.

Fig. 10: Extracto de la guía de diseño original de Fairweather Manor. Gracias a Claus Raasted por pasarme el documennto original.

Una manera de tratarlo más disimuladamente es darle ese trasfondo feminista a uno de los personajes, sin hacerlo un tema tan central para la partida. En ese caso, será el jugador el encargado en sacar el debate, pero normalmente se encontrará con unos argumentos en contra mucho menos preparados, pudiendo caer en el actualismo. Aún así, reivindicar ciertas feministas históricas, con las que los personajes puedan haber estado en contacto, ayuda al conocimiento sobre el movimiento. Un ejemplo fue la utilización de las teorías de Emma Goldman para uno de los personajes del vivo “Sicilia. 1923.” (8).


2.2. Ucronía como herramienta

Las ucronías (utopías, distopías… incluídas) pueden ser buena una herramienta para reflejar cambios sociales tal y como se hace en las buenas novelas de ciencia ficción. La sociedad es, y debe ser, uno de los puntos centrales de reflexión en estos casos. Ya sea para mostrar diferentes tipos de relación (como en Blue Flame Larp)(9), como para permitir mayor jugabilidad a las mujeres (como en Eureka) (10).

En Eureka: ferrum, aureum et purpura, creamos una ucronía donde la máquina de Vapor de Herón de Alejandría había cambiado para siempre el imperio romano (11). Uno de las decisiones de diseño más importantes que tuvimos que tomar fue el papel que las mujeres tendrían en esa Roma ucrónica. Para permitir jugabilidad (por ejemplo, mujeres senadoras), decidimos dejar un estado parecido al de la primera ola del feminismo (algunas mujeres representantes, derecho a voto restringido) y lucha por estar en otras facetas de la sociedad como la militar.

En ese aspecto, y dado que la ucronía siempre ha contado con niños que podían vivir su propia historia, el personaje de Valeria (fig. 11), encarnado por Helena, una niña de 10 años, quería ser soldado. Su ficha era todo un manifiesto de problemas de género. En determinado momento del vivo, vi a la niña llorando y me acerqué a ella. Cuando le pregunté qué le pasaba me contestó: “¿Por qué no puedo ser soldado como Cayo? A él le hacen caso porque es hombre y a mi no.” Se me rompió el corazón. Conseguir que una niña de esa edad en el siglo XXI sintiese eso fue una pasada, pero a la vez quizá fue un tema demasiado fuerte para una niña de su edad. Así pues, tened cuidado con tratar este tema cuando estéis creando partidas en las que incluyáis a niños.

Fig.11: Helena como Valeria en Eureka: La Encrucijada (febrero 2014). Producciones Gorgona.


2.3. Machismo como Leit motiv

En algunas ocasiones, la estructura de la sociedad machista es el objetivo principal de la ambientación. El objetivo en ese caso puede ser simplemente sentir cómo se vive en ese momento o provocar una reacción de animadversión en los jugadores que acabe en rebelión. Es una mecánica que se usa mucho en los vivos históricos. Sin embargo, una de las maneras más potentes de denunciar eso, es con vivos totalmente cossgender, en los que los participantes llevan un personaje del sexo contrario al suyo.

Un gran ejemplo de ello es “Still water runs deep” (12), un vivo francés ambientado a principios del siglo XIX, que en su quinta edición decidió invertir el sexo de los participantes y de los papeles que representaban. En el citado artículo se puede ver como esta experiencia resultó interesantísima para ambos géneros, ya que llevaron tramas que nunca antes habían podido experimentar y pudieron comprender mejor el papel que la sociedad patriarcal guarda para el otro género.

En otros vivos esto sucede de una manera más sutil. Un ejemplo es Asile des Saints Anges Gardiens (13) en el que el machismo era un tema principal para muchos personajes. Se trata, principalmente, cómo afecta éste a la medicina con ejemplos como las curas de histeria y los electroshocks. En él, se permitía la posibilidad de interpretar un personaje del otro género para poder vivir la experiencia inversa. Asimismo, era un tema ampliamente tratado en la guía de diseño, con varias páginas dedicadas a ello.

En esa misma línea se encuentra “Harem son Saat”(14), que también tiene este tema como central. Harem es un vivo sobre los últimos años del Imperio Otomano, justo después de haber fallecido el heredero. El enfoque de este vivo es tremendamente realista pero a la vez narrativo, en lo que los franceses llaman estilo romanesque. En él hay personajes neutros, los eunucos, que viven un poco al margen de las convenciones de género, y pueden ser interpretados tanto por hombres como por mujeres. El resto, hombres y mujeres, deben comportarse como la sociedad otomana espera de ellos, dando lugar a escenas tan potentes como ésta (Fig. 12).

Fig. 12: Harem son Saat. Muriel Algayres.


2.4. Tratando temas actuales

Por último, se puede usar para tratar temas actuales. Éstos temas pueden variar desde el derecho al aborto, al feminismo en los países árabes pasando por el culto al cuerpo o los piropos. Los temas son tan variados como la sociedad en la que vivimos. Y es en este punto donde los vivos se convierten en una herramienta todavía más directa con la que ayudar a la sociedad.

Como ejemplo paradigmático de este punto se encuentra la antología #Feminism: a nano game anthology, un compendio de juegos de menos de una hora creados por autoras de todo el mundo. La edición se financió mediante crowfunding y aún es adquirible en su edición digital. De hecho, están nominados a ganar un premio en el Indicadie, una de las convenciones de juegos más importantes del mundo.

No entraré aquí en detalles sobre lo que puede significar jugar algunos de los juegos de la antología, que llegan a cambiarte, literalmente, la vida(15). Pero poder poner sobre la mesa los temores y tabúes que tenemos las mujeres, compartir esos momentos, concienciar a la gente… es algo prácticamente impagable. Os recomiendo fervientemente que le echéis una ojeada a la publicación y, si podéis, participéis en alguno de los juegos. Os cambiará la perspectiva de lo que los vivos pueden hacer por la sociedad.



  • Conclusiones


Intentando sincretizar en pocas palabras el tema, podemos decir que el feminismo es algo que necesitamos en nuestra subcultura tanto para mejorar a nivel interno como para mejorar el mundo en el que vivimos. La lucha continúa.



(1) Miembro de Producciones Gorgona. Autora de este blog. Contacto: mirella.machancoses@gmail.com
(2) Éste post y siguientes.
(3) Esta página. 
(4) Sobre el rol en vivo como subcultura podéis consultar el trabajo de Maria Moreno que también fue presentado en EntreRevs 2016
(5)He eliminado los nombres de los autores de los comentarios para mantener su intimidad, aunque se trate de un post público de facebook. El mismo color indica la misma persona y se ha indicado su sexo mediante los símbolos, ya que se considera relevante para este análisis. Tan sólo se han mantenido aquellos de personajes públicos y de los que me han dado expresamente su autorización para ello. 
(6) Gracias a Somnia, Producciones Gorgona, Pili Escribá, Salamarkham... por los datos usados para esta sección.. También gracias a todos los que habéis dicho que me los enviaréis para ampliar esta sección en el futuro.
(7) Diobzap Studios(2015)
(8) Producciones Gorgona (2013-2015)
(9) Primera edición: Not Only Larp y Producciones Gorgona (2016). Segunda edición: Not only Larp (2017)
(10) Producciones Gorgona (2012-2014)
(11) Más información: http://www.tupj.es/la-voz-del-vivo-mirella-de-eureka-ferrum-aureum-et-purpuram/
(12) Rujha Team (Francia 2016)
(13) Producciones Gorgona (2015)
(14) Muriel Algayres para Rôle (Francia 2016-2017)
(15) Sobre este tema ya escribí tres artículos en este blog: www.lamiradadegorgona.wordpress.com

Larp in the Museum: The Game Kitchen in the V&A

More or less a month ago, The Game Kitchen (a London-based group of larp creators who join once a month for creating short larps together and play test them) received a mail from the Victoria&Albert Museum for doing a larp in their November open night. This night was called “Friday Late: parallel worlds“.

For me, the opportunity of running a larp in an important museum as V&A was a dream become true. I think larp should have an important role inside future museums, not only as an educational tool but also as a piece of art (as performances are). For me, being part of these is the first step of that path.

Regrettably, November wasn’t a very good month for me to be an active part in the creative process. I had a huge amount of work and a vacation planned to attend to Black Friday larp. Even though, I decided to join the group and be part of the team who ran the larp last Friday.

Finally, there were two spaces in which people of The Game Kitchen were running two different larps. The first was “Beholder Controller” of Adam James. It sounds really exciting but I couldn’t attend (they were both projects simultaneously). The second one was an adaptation of “Fallen Stars” of Larps from the Factory called “In Storage”.

In Storage

Discussing in the group which game would be nice to perform in the museum, one of the first ideas was doing an adaptation of “Fallen Stars” by Martin Nielsen  and Magnar Grønvik Müller. Playing with old objects was a suitable idea for an environment as rich as the V&A in those things. The authors were contacted and the gave their permission for it. 

Main adaptation of the larp was made by Kate Bennett, and written down by Michael Such an Mo Holkar (thank a lot! great job!). The idea was running short (30-40 min) larps with around 10 players in each of them. It was a really interesting so we can manage to run them though the evening and nearly 50 people could enjoy it.

In Storage is about a group of objects all part of the same exhibition at a museum. As in “Fallen Stars”, the objects could walk and talk when there are no humans around. The exhibition has come to an end and the objects were in storage as the museum decides what to do next: permanent exhibition or thrown into a vault. 

Participants had 10 minutes, before the larp started, to find an object in the museum. They should make a photo of it and come back. They will play this object. After that, we had ten-fifteen minutes of workshop (warm-up and character building) and another fifteen minutes of play. I hope the authors decided to make public the adaptation as I think it’s really a good job for bring closer larp and museum.

Running the larp in a museum room has its problems. We should be extra-careful with the people playing, as they shouldn’t damage any of the pictures exposed there. That limited a lot the physical actions, but the background was so nice to play in. In addition, we only had one room, so workshops were being run in one part of the room at the same time that people played in other corner and other visitors come through it. It wasn’t the ideal venue but it was worthwhile.

I was part of them team that ran the workshops, and it was an amazing experience. Running workshops for not larpers was really interesting, as you should focus in some aspects that you normally don’t do: how to role-play a character, breaking ice and encourage them to play…

I’m really glad that The Game Kitchen gave me the opportunity to be there. I think people had a really good time playing it and I hope some of them will play another larp in the future. We’re living interesting times for our hobby, and I hope to be here to see the transformation from an outcast activity to a well-known and accepted one. We’re near it!

Mirella Machancoses López


Black Friday (International run 1)

OMG! I’m back from Black Friday (International run 1) and I’m so excited about it. As they have declared a embargo of the stories until the end of run 2, I will wait to post this out. But being all the week without saying a world about it in public has been really, really hard.

So… what’s Black Friday? Black Friday is an italian larp, the first full-English one ever done there. It was a translation from the italian runs made in. Here you have the general data of the event:

Name: Black Friday

Dates: 10-13 of November 2016

Organization: Terra Spezzate, Chaos League, Cronosfera

Nº of players: 72

Fee: 128€ (standard) + costume rental (depending on your group)

Web page: http://www.theblackfriday.it/

Liberty Town and its amazing settlement. Photo by Cristina Palamini.

The setting:

Before beginning the larp, the only thing we all knew about the setting was a small piece of information in the webpage: “Black Friday is set in present-day USA. If not in time, we will take you far away in space, to a remote American town, in a modern-day realistic, complex and technologically advanced setting. A setting we want to live and depict with all its contrasts and contradictions.” Finally, it was set in a little village in Wyoming in 2014 (that was really a pity because we couldn’t talk about the recent Trump’s election as president).

The other clue we had about it was the references: “Many aspects of Black Friday closely remind some American tv-shows. The dangerous secrets and conspiracies seen in “Utopia” and “Homeland”, the whirling uncertainty of “Lost”, and some flashes of “X-Files” and “Visitors” too. Add a pinch from “The Twilight Zone” and movies like “Village of The Damned” and “Blindness”.”.

And it was as amazing as it seemed from the description or even more. For me, it was living an Utopia chapter all the time, and it was so great! I don’t want to spoil a lot about the larp as I hope they run other international editions in the future (this larp is so amazing that everybody should have a chance to play it).

The experience depended a lot in which group you were into. There were three different which you have to join when buying your tickets: law enforcement (FBI, Delta Force, Swat), scientifics, and town people. I decided to play as a scientific, and I couldn’t have chosen best position for my style of play (more on this below).

The location:

The game was played in “The village of the Stars”, a rustic hamlet located in Lusernetta (near Turin, Italy). It was in a cool valley, 780 mt. above sea level, in the first slopes of the Alps. The views were really breathtaking.

The village was really beautiful, with its stone houses, a lot of communal spaces to play into, and totally out of “mundane” people. The perfect location for a larp like this. The pity is that I spent mostly all of the playing time inside the lab, that was amazing, but not enjoying the rest of locations.

Even though, I was able to go for an in-game walk at night, and it was a breathtaking experience. The moonlight reflected on the mountain’s snow, drawing the profile of the Alps. For my character, really religious person who enjoyed to be in the mountains because it was God’s creation, was illuminating. For me, it was a memory that will be in my mind for years.

The only real problem with the larp, for me, was the extreme cold of the Alps in November. Even the organisers had communicate that it would be cold, it was more than we expected. Termal underwear was not enough for a southern girl like me to keep warm in the long hours of work in the lab. And in the few hours we went to sleep (I slept three hours each night of game), it was really freezing. The problem is the type of heating that the cabins had, that needed people putting wood in it all the time, and when you’re playing, it’s easy to forget those mundane things. Saturday night, not being in game, we manage to keep the rooms well heated and it was a complete different experience.

The workshops:

For some problems that weren’t from the organisation, the larp busses arrived 1.30 h late to the location. That was a problem as we ended beginning the workshops late. And that made them shorter than we expected.

We began with a short briefing about how to manage the guns (black fire guns), the general rules of the larp and how to do violence (realistic fights). After that, we were separated into different groups and we did some exercises around the team dynamics. For me, it was the best part of the workshops. We had time to learn all our names (we worked in a lab together for some years), and knowing the public information for each player.

I want to really highlight the exercise of “the interrogation” where we can ask the other characters questions about themselves. It was really interesting to know about their political preferences, their believes, their commitment to the company… It gave us a lot of material to use inside the larp.

The other exercise that was really useful was a flashback scene where we ought to play how a coworker ended in the hospital for breaking an emergency protocol. It gave us a lot of thoughts about the theme (that afterwards was essential in the larp) and some common knowledge. To all my co-players: DON’T BE DELGADO, MY FRIENDS!

I would have appreciated the pre-larp workshops to be longer (the last one was cut eithout having time to finish it), and having some post-larp workshops would have been great. A lot of people left with a lot of bleed that could have been managed better. But the organisers choice was doing a great after-party full of Italian food (I don’t regret that part at all xD).

Scientists during the workshops. Photo by Kadri Umbleja.

Style of larp:

One of my great objectives going to this larp was experimenting an Italian game for myself. In the last couple of years, south-European larpers have been talking a lot about the existence (or not) of a Mediterranean Larp Scene. What we have clear is that, even if we have been influenced a lot by Nordic Larp Scene, we aren’t the same and we want to keep our traits. There have been manifestos, informal talks and a lot of articles in that.

So having the opportunity of experimenting the Italian style was amazing. That’s the best thing about international larps. We can knew each other and share experiences. We can learn and teach. And that’s amazing.

Black Friday was what I expected in terms of play and style. Characters have secrets that you could discover in game. There was a strong story created by the organisers but you could play your part in it freely. I prefer those kind of larps to sandbox ones!

It was a really similar style to what we do in Producciones Gorgona, in Not Only Larp or even in some of the Somnia’s or Snara’s events. So, my answer is yes, we have a southern style, some treats in common, and we should begin to talk about them. I’m looking forward to play Harem in May so I can also add to this the romanesque French style 🙂

So much fun in the lab. Photo by Kadri Umbleja.

Playing as a scientific

So I could play as a scientific, and it was so great! I’ve always wanted to play a doctor. I love medical investigation in larp, and it’s something recurrent in the games I design. But this experience was in another level. Totally.

Checking the pregnant woman for the 5th time. Photo by José Fabregat.

Marco Ascanio and his team did a great job setting the lab, and the investigation design was so well thought. We could perform blood tests (we put an appliance with a blood bag inside and we could really extract blood from patients and analyse it afterwards!!). We had a book full of instructions of how to perform each test (real chemical experiences in which we should do it and actually investigation them). We had the best larp-made machine I’ve ever seen: the tomography. Running the tomography machine was a pleasure, and it gave me a lot of play with the town people, afraid of us and our strange things. And we have a pc-program where we can put all the data and it will gave us results that were needed for the resolution of the game.

Tomography. Best larp machine ever! Photo by Kadri Umbleja.

I can’t really explain how terrific the experience of being there was. We worked for hours, and hours (sleeping only three each night) to being able to figure the mystery. But it was great play, and our co-players were so great also.

Now, I do know that those things could be made in a larp. The sky’s (maybe the money) is the limit! We should think bigger to archive larps like that. And the high production levels weren’t only in the lab: the real vehicles had the name of the different agencies, the town doctor has his office with all the patients files, the make-ups… So impressive!


I could talk and talk about this amazing experience (even if I know that some people had a different experience about it I think generally was a really good larp), but I’m trying to be secretive and let you experience it if they make another run. In the meanwhile, we’re waiting for more Italian larps to play on 🙂

Mirella Machancoses López

Narrative in Larp: the role of the organisers

Some years ago, some Spanish people began to participate and read about Nordic Larps. The richness they’ve brought with themselves has changed a lot the Spanish larp scene. Some organisations, as Gorgona, have incorporated some of the characteristic features of them. But for me, it’s not only copying the style or the safe rules… but to create a whole range of new styles, enriched by our own larp scene tradition.

One of these traits is the strong narrative content and the rich stories provided by the larp writers. It is not an exclusive thing about our larps, but also in other southern traditions as French ( as Romanesque larp; which Gorgona larps has a lot in common) and Italy (as Southern Way). This has tried to be resumed as a Mediterranean Larp but this term has also been disputed. Lately, we are improving our communication and I hope we could make some kind of common manifesto. In the meanwhile, I would write about that in an other post. But today is not the day.

Blue Flame Larp (Not Only Larp and Producciones Gorgona). Photographer: Mirella Machancoses

Today is the day to write about narrative. What is narrative in our larps? How can we do a enjoyable experience when we tell a pre-written story? How characters work in this context?

Larp as storytelling

For me, larp is a mean of artistic expression in which there are two big artistic agents: the larp writer and the players. The final product will be the result of both of them, as well as the good communication between them.

I create larps for giving form to an idea, to tell a story as I could do in cinema or theatre. But with one difference: there are no passive agents but active participants, the players. So it’s our responsability as creators to be able to transmit our idea not only about the background but also about the characters, the genre of the larp… And after that, the players should play their characters, with total freedom, inside the frame we had created, reacting to the story we are telling.

Sicilia. 1923. (Producciones Gorgona). Photographer: unknown.

However, creating a story, with a complex argument, doesn’t mean to create which we call in Spanish tradition “el tren de la bruja” (the witch’s train), or in videogames “on rails”. That kind of larp, as in the fairground, only permits one way of developing the story, with some events and a predetermined end. It means create a frame in which some interesting things happens and in which the players, as their characters, should react.

In that way we created an “structural” larp (thanks Mithur for the word xD). In those larps, each action of the characters influences the developing of the story, and the organisers should react and adapt the events of the larp to it. As an organiser, as you begin the run of the larp, you don’t know how it’s going to end. And each run of the larp is really different as the players are different. Even though, you have a series of actions prepared and you have something to say in the way it develops. It’s in your hand giving to your players things to do if they are bored, or re-conduct the story if it’s going to a premature end. We have done that in all our larps but it’s the same design it’s been used in other larps as Blue Flame (with the collaboration of Not Only Larp) or Robota (Somnia).

Robota (Somnia). Photographer: David Blaya Papaya

Character design

“In this kind of larps, the characters are overtaken by their past, and they will discover during the larp a new side of their own story, when speaking with other characters or going through events. There are often a lot of dramatic revelations.” 

As the second point about Romanesque Style, Vincent Choupaut talks about the importance of the past of the characters that are able to discover a new part of themselves though the larp. I totally agree with that.

For José Fabregat and I, when we created Gorgona, we based our character design in some basic points:

  • No-transparency. The character have secrets and personal stories that are designed for creating surprises during the larp. The design needs from secrecy to work well. That doesn’t mean that you should keep that secrets until the end. For us, it’s important that all the players “play to flow”, to create an interesting story for everybody. So, tell the secret in the most dramatic and interesting moment!
  • Each character has a unique and totally personalised character sheet. It’s important to create a little novel for each of them, that reflect their uniqueness. This includes a totally personalised character relation list. Because we think that when you know somebody you have your point of view about them, not only their life-facts.
  • All the characters should have a moment within the general larp narrative in which they feel especial, “the main characters of the film”. It could be a little event, a prop…
  • All the characters should have enough things to do during the larp. There aren’t objectives but personal goals of the characters, relations to develop, plots to be into… They should have enough interesting things to do, but they can choose what they want to do and how they want to develop them.
  • It must work together as a social engineering work. The characters are designed to complete each other and to represent different thoughts, ages, and relations. All in all, we create a complex social structure.
Asile des Saints Anges Gardiens (Producciones Gorgona). Photographer: Mirella Machancoses.

All in all

There are different styles of larp, but ours includes narrative as an important tool. It’s a design choice that I don’t want to lose. The influence of some blockbuster and sandbox larps is great in other ways (immersion, lack of rules, freedom of the players…) but it doesn’t mean that we should copy the nordic examples without incorporating our tradition.

Talk, experiment, read, join other cultures… and create your own way!

Mirella Machancoses.


Larp and Family

Some days ago I read a post in Larp Europe asking for Larps which included children or children orientated. I read the answer very closely as my talk in the first Entrerevs (Spanish larp design conference) was about it. And I discovered that between 2013 and today nothing has changed in the Spanish community and the problems that we are facing are common in other cultures (even there are some significant changes). So that’s why I decided to translate my talk to English and I will try to do a part in which I put it in perspective after the years passed.

Before I get started I will like to point that Spanish larp community is younger (in general) that nordic larp community.


The talk:

Time flies, and those who began to play larps are not teenagers anymore. Fortunately or unfortunately, the pass of the time bring some new challenges and responsabilities: a work to attend to, a couple or, even, children. Is that a reason for giving-up our passions? Do we need to park our children with their grandparents or a nanny each time we want to enjoy a larp? How can we spread our hobby to our kids?

The answer is not easy. Most of the larps until know didn’t include the possibility of going with your children. And, if they let, we should carry them with us all the larp. That is why neither us or them could enjoy totally. The reason is that the needs of children and adults are not the same. And, between children, age is an essential point of breakdown, because they need different kinds of larps and more or less adult supervision.

Until know, the experiences I knew, included that the children when to the larps -as TimeLords- or, simply, they were one part more of the larp, without stories or characters written for them, depending on the interest of some players to create them content. In other larps, as “El Despertar de Cyric”, their own parents were the responibles for written the children larp so they can enjoy a little bit.

With that questions in mind, I asked myself how we can integrate the children in Gorgona larps. For years, my experience as scout instructor gave me the oportunity to integrate rol-playing in our activities in some many ways: interpretation, themathised gymkanas for developing new abilities and, with the older, little larps specially prepared for them. But for being able to integrate them in an adult larp, we need to analise well t

Fig. 1: Toddler in Eureka: La Encrucijada

he problems it carries, and the benefits that we can enjoy.


First problem comes with the children between 0 and 5 years-old (Fig.1). In that age, they are too young to let them have any freedom, and they are really dependent on their parents, without any authonomy. In addition, they are not capable to realise that they are in a larp, and they can’t play a complex character for long tmes. Children in this age going to the larps usually goes with their parents, which make turns to look after them. The parent’s characters are fully integrated on the larp, but they can’t enjoy it in the same way. Sometimes, they have too much to do as a characters and it creates so much anxiety (Fig. 2).

Fig.2: Toddler with his mum

One of the solutions that we can provide is the creation of kindergardens in the bigger larps. After a certain amount of interested parents, a person could be hired to be their nanny. They can do activities related with the larp setting. Parents could enjoy some hours of freedom and full immersive interpretation without giving up all contact with their children during the weekend.


Children between 5 and 7 can be part of a lap, but they required a strict surveillance. They aren’t going to be on character all the larp, but they will enjoy a good gymkhana, if they have an organiser focused in them. They have to be a small group, between three and five per organiser.

Fig. 3: Kids with their own organiser

The ideal age is between 8 and 12 years-old (Fig.3). In this age, children can read their character independently, understand it and play it. They feel it, being part of a big adventure. With an organiser dedicated to them, the results will maximise (and he/she didn’t need to be with them all the time). The could have more freedom or, at least, believe they have. They can play with the adults characters, but they always should have an adventure specially designed for them. So they can feel special. Each child should have their moment, when they are important to the group. They will learn to work in team and solving complex problems. Even though, you should know that they are children, and they need a big physical activity. You should design active parts, that allow them to be tired and more relaxed.

Fig. 4: Teenager with an adult larper.

The most difficult age is between 13 and 16 -when we consider that they can join most larps as an adult player-. In those years, children aren’t anymore, they are teenagers, but they are not mature enough to be part of the adult themes in a complete way (Fig. 4). In his stage, we need to give them characters with more responsibility and relation with the general larp, but being conscious about their age. It is a moment of adaptation, growing and mixed feelings. And we should be aware of it for integrating them. The ideal is having a group of youngsters of this age so they can play and work together, nor being children nor adults, but being the bridge between both groups.

Nevertheless, not all larps are prepared to welcome children in them. If you are preparing a really immersive horror larp, maybe having little children isn’t the best choice. If they are truly terrified, they are going to be out of the character, and they can’t follow the adult argumentation… It’s neither a good idea if you’re going to do a survival larp, or a larp with adult content as sex (as a main thing).

If you believe that your larp and your organisation are prepared for accepting minors in them, those are the things you should be aware of:

  • Are there violent scenes? Even if you think that they aren’t a big deal for an adult, a child could be shocked easily. For our own experience, we should design the larp for children not to be present in the programmed violent scenes. They can see attacks, and they should interact with those scenes, but they have to be design as something childish and surmountable for them (Fig. 5).

    Fig.5: Kids and a teenager wih their NPC and an adult larper (non-family)
  • Be aware of some topics: even it’s really interesting to work in gender issues since they are kids, it could be difficult to manage for them. So, if you’re going to do it, have a person with them all the time.

  • Be careful with the rythm: Think of the child larp as an adventure film or book for children. Don’t understimate the capability of children to discover things in a look, or of being stocked in the most stupid things (for adults, obviously). You need to have somebody guiding them trough the adventure. Ideally, you should have an NPC only for them, and a full-time dedicated organiser.

  • Don’t accept more children that the number your are capable to handle. Be aware of their ages, so you can know if they can work together and the numer of organisers you will need to control them.

Fig. 6: Toddler, kids and adult larpers playing together.
Fig. 7: Kids inside their own adventure

Finally, I should encourage you to integrate children if you can (Fig.6). It’s an amazing experience for all the players, including scenes that are truly unforgettable. In Eureka -our steampunk Rome larps- we made two with children integrated, and an intermediate one (only for them) so they can do the transition between them. I wanted to acknowlege all the parents that had rely on us, and the children -between 9 and 13- that had come to play with us, and they had put all their illusion in each adventure (Fig 7). They are the ones to make true my crazy ideas and the reason why I’m writing this: a personal reflexion about my experience that I hope it will be of your interest.



In those last three years, a lot of things have happened to larps in Spain. We had opened to an international audience (La Sirena Varada, Blue Flame, Hasta que la Mafia nos Separe), we had made new big boffer larps, we had improved a lot our progressive scene… But, even though, things are not better for children in our larps.

All the larps that I’m aware of in Spain that admits children, rely on the parents to prepare things for their kids. Even ti could be an amazing family experience, I think we can do more, and better. Larp can be an amazing educational tool, so larp writters can use it to improve the target of the larp, creating a yuxtaposed stories that enrichened everybody experience.

About larps fully dedicated to children, I’m not aware of anyone if they are not edu-larps done inside schools or scout groups, usually with a short lenght. In this matter, there have been some improvements as the first academic works in Spanish edu-larps (Thank you, Janire for your amazing job).

So we need to work together, as a community, to be able to do family larps that could be as interesting, or more, than the adults ones. Don’t be afraid, there’s a world to discover!

Mirella Machancoses. Based on an Entrerevs talk.

Larping abroad, larping around: a Spanish girl in The Solution.

It’s not very common than an Spanish larper goes to a Nordic Larp. In the last year, things have changed a bit due to the big Blockbuster larps as College of Wizardry or Fairweather Manor. Before that point, only a few have gone out of our borders (thanks Zuell, Juan, Pablo and Nast for opening the path). But each time it happens, the Spanish progressive larp scene learns lot of important stuff, has the opportunity to mix with the people who created the larps we have read about… It’s undeniable that Spanish progressive scene has learnt a lot of Nordic Larp books and papers, but experimenting the techniques it’s a whole different thing.

And that’s why I decided to write this review from another point of view. I don’t want to talk about (or not only) the metatechniques or the evolution of the game, but explain what I have learnt and how a Spanish girl feels when is larping abroad and alone. Maybe this is not the post you where expecting, but it’s what I needed to write. So here I go.

The journey

I finally decided to join The Solution after a talk with the great Esperanza Montero (to whom this post is dedicated :-* ). She was going to write characters to get a cheaper ticket, and she encouraged me to ask for the Nordic Larp Fund (as I wouldn’t have time to write with the wedding and the honeymoon). And I get it! I was so excited about it! I could finally go to a proper Nordic Larp (FM experience was great, but blockbusters have many differences), in a setting I loved (I truly love dystopias).

The doubts and fears appeared a few months after, when I began to prepare the travel. I needed to travel by myself to the other part of Europe, and Esperanza couldn’t came. Was I able to do it? I told myself “yeah! You’re a strong woman. You can do it”. But it’s not as easy as it could seem. I was really terrified of spending a night alone in Amsterdam, and, after, went to a larp where I barely knew a few people and not really well. I felt alone and all my insecurities were stronger than ever.

My Impostor Syndrome was stronger than ever. I felt like a bad larper, that I shouldn’t be playing with the “olds”, that my English wasn’t good enough to be there. I suppose everyone has felt something similar in a point of his or her life, but the fear was paralysing me. And when I discovered that this week I had to move to England, I nearly quit. However, my wonderful husband convince me to go. He knew that I needed to do it by myself, play it and feel empowered. I’m so grateful for that.

In Amsterdam, the night before the Larp (my plane had a 17h scale).

When I arrived to Gothemburg, even Marie receive me, I felt so alone and lost. And when I arrived to the larp, the feeling increased. I could say hello to some people (Linda, Mila, Karolina…) but they were in the previous wave so they were preparing themselves to be took into the larp, so I couldn’t really speak with them. I normally need the socializing previous to the larp, I love talking with people, know them… but my fear was so big that I couldn’t. I felt misplaced.

The workshops helped me to lose my doubts and enter into the larp. I will do a ellipsis here as I want to speak about them and the larp in different parts. But when the larp was finished, I felt better with myself, happy to have been able of playing it. During the postlarp party my fears came back, and I felt so lonely. After an intense larp, I really need hugs, having a friend with whom I could relax, but I hadn’t. I have met some amazing people during the larp, but I have no further relation with them, so they were with their friends, and I was alone. I didn’t know where I was going to sleep or what was going to happen with me, and the freak control inside me couldn’t manage that. But I finally came over it and I made myself speak with others, enjoy the party and solve the problems as they came. And I’m so happy about that. I push my limits a little bit harder, and I discovered a lot of things about myself.

The workshops

First of all, I attended to the third wave of the larp (short ticket: 30 hours). That’s important because, as I could see later, the experiences not only during the event but also in the previous workshops, have changed a lot between the long, the standard and the short waves(1). If you want to see an interesting review about the standard experience you could read Karolina’s review.

My experience in the workshops was totally different. For me, they worked so well not only for building the relationships but also for learning the meta-techniques. Their rhythm was so good, and I really appreciated the ars amandi and fighting ones.

The ars amandi workshop was the best I’ve ever done. For being clear, I usually hate the loving meta-techniques. When we have used ars amandi in Spain, is usually meanless. It made the sex feels weird, people having sex in front of other people without caring about it, and that isn’t realistic for general situations. Relating with intimacy, I’m with Karolina when she wrote about it in her blog. Maybe one day I would develop my thoughts about it, but this is not the correct moment. This workshop was really well done, and for the first time, I realised how it could be used for rape, and all different kinds of sex. I learned a lot of how explaining and work the technique in a workshop, and I hope we could use that knowledge in future Gorgona larps.

Furthermore, the fighting technique was developed for the needs of this specific larp. And it worked so well. As the set was narrow, they need something that could represent violence without danger for the people involved. They decided to do it pushing the other by the shoulders until they reach the ground. It hasn’t have to be a real fight, just a way of representing it. It was physical, it made you sweat. For me, it worked so well.

During the game, as it usually happens, they were developed. They set the mood and the beginning point for the participants to use them, and the players use them in the way they are more confortable with. In some of the study groups (2), both techniques changed into something more physical, allowing more contact. But it was ok at it was escalated between the larpers.

The larp

The larp began going inside the white room. Inside it, you can not speak or touch anybody. For me, it worked well for the beginning of the game. It helped me to go inside my character and trying to find ways of communicating without words. When we were conducted into the complex, my mind, as player and as character, was totally empty, and full of fears. Even though, the long stay in the room made some people to begin to sleep, or doing some strange things, that didn’t help the immersion. I guess that the experience in the white room was so different due to our own core groups (3).

When I went inside the facility, all was in it maximum point. We were the last group to go into so everyone was shouting, was part fo some of the study groups… It was a shock. That was the larp I wanted so badly to be in.

But I blame myself. I couldn’t really immerse in my character. And that’s something that usually don’t happen to me. It was really frustrating. I keep thinking and acting as myself, as I thought I should do. But not as Eeva. And I hated it. I have one of the most important scenes without feeling it. I was sad and I blame myself for it.

But in the middle of the larp, they call me for an interview with one of the npcs. And it worked so much for me. I realise that I should change my play, become more aggressive (as the character was that kind of) and change of core group. I also realise that I hadn’t eat for nearly 24h, and I cried when a guard says that I should go into the facility with the banana I had as compliment after the interview. I had cry for a banana! And suddenly, I realise I could be Eeva.

After that point, I enjoyed the larp more. I joined the Pack and I could finally be part of something (thanks all the players for that). Physicality helped me to be one with the character. And social interactions were stronger from that moment.

Even though, it wasn’t one of my best larps. I have real problems with being one with the character, and I can’t blame the organizers nor the other players for that. I think it was something inside myself. I only hope that the others that played with me enjoyed it.

What should we learn?

Inside The Pack part of the set, after the larp. Photo by myself.

As a person,

  • You shouldn’t be afraid of going alone for a larp. Larp community is so welcoming. If you want to go and can, do it! You will learn a lot about yourself and about larping.
  • Impostor syndrome doesn’t have to paralise you. You’re better than you think!
  • You’re able to made new friends!

As Spanish larp community,

  • We don’t have to be afraid of going out and learn from others. See how they do it isn’t the same as seeing it.
  • We also have really good larps and larp designers. Progressive larp in Spain is rich and have it distinctive treats, we should not destroy them!
  • We should keep writing in English about our larps and doing international larp. We are beginning to be known, and we should continue in this path.


I want to really congratulate the organizers not only for the larp but also for being such amazing people. They helped me a lot. I didn’t speak about the design of the set (it was really amazing!) or about the food (it was disgusting but really well design), as I wanted this to be a personal experience post. If I find strength I will try to write another part speaking about all the other things. 🙂


(1) The tickets of the larp were sold with three lengths; long, standard and short. They cost different prices and they provide different game experiences. The long ticket holders could experience the design of the experiment. The standard holders how the groups were formed. The short holders could experience going into the experiment when all was already settle, with the difficulties to fit into the different groups.

(2) The larp was divided in four study groups that you could join or abandon when you wanted, letting you explore four different approaches to the experiment.

(3) Core groups where the previous relations of your character, so they have a common story and they had decided to join the experiment together.

La Sirena Varada-a review

The last weekend of May I played the second run of the Spanish Larp “La Sirena Varada” (The Strainded Mermaid), based in the play of Alejandro Casona. It was created by Somnia and played completely in English.

May 26th to 29th 2016

Al Jatib caves (Baza, Granada, Spain)

International larp – English language

22 positions

If you want to read more about the larp you can go to their webpage and to the design document.

The location

The location was the Al Jatib caves (Baza, Granada, Spain). I have been there for the Entrereves, the Spanish larp conference a couple of years ago, so the surpise wasn’t as big as for the others. Even though, it is one of the most amazing locations I’ve played in (including some blockbuster events as Fairweather Manor). Of course, it is not as big, or as rich, but it was the ideal place for this kind of larp

One of the things that surprised me more about the propaganda of the larp was that Somnia didn’t make a big point about the location. Of course, they say it was in the caves, and they provided a link to the hotel web page, but it was nearly all. And it was a luxury accommodation.

The Republic of the Free, the community who we were playing, was a rich one. They have just retired to some place in Spain to create art together, to be themselves. And you can truly do that in the caves. The rooms were excellent, the bathrooms amazing. We have a beautiful swimming pool around which we created a lot of amazing art pieces. And, the main point of the location: the hammam. So, it is a perfect 360º place.

Even if you don’t like this kind of games, the location is fantastic if you want to spend a couple of days relaxing near one of the most beautiful cities in the world, Granada.

First run photo by Esperanza Montero.

The workshops

The workshops were well explained in the design document. They were 15 of them, occupying all the first evening (from 4-12 pm). During the 5-6 first workshops, you are yourself during the explanation of the larp and its mechanics. Even though, you begin to work in the character personality and its relation with the others. After the 7th workshop, you had built your personality and you are inside character most of the time, even you continue working in some aspects of the characters. After that, the breaks are in character (including the dinner break).

It was a curious approach to the pre-larp workshops. Usually, you are out of your character until they finished. We could work in there the different methatecniques (I will explain them latter), built new realtions between the community…

I don’t want to explain them one by one, as you can read them in the design guide. Although, I want to focus in those who were best or worst.

The character creation was done by the technique of the personality triangles. It worked well for me as I could fix the main points of the physique and the mind of Comrade, the character I was playing.

For creating new relations, they used some different workshops. I really enjoyed playing the tandem, as I could create one of the main relations for my character. I also liked the ghost workshop as it really helped to get the mechanique of that point (when your character dies, its memory remains there and people can interact with it). The flashback exercise didn’t work as well as the others, at least for me. It was play in thirds. Other player directed the scenes for the other two, and we changed after. As the director didn’t really knows your character personality, it was difficult to do it.

The most difficult part of the larp was the “fluid time”. We played a full year of the community in only one weekend, so the times flies quickly. When somebody left a conversation and comes back, time has passed in a significant way (for example, two weeks).  The workshop tried to help with that but it was done fast as we had run off time. I think this point should improve for the next run (if there is) so players could use the technique more easily.

After the workshops, the larp began with a party.

The methatecniques

One of the things that I loved more of the larp was that all –or nearly all- the methatecniques were diagetic in the game. For me, as I came from the Spanish larp tradition in which we don’t use lot of them, was easier for remaining in my character all the larp.

Ars Marte

Ars Marte was the technique used by the community for resolving their violent issues. Fighting was a thing for the grey people, the outsiders. We had a workshop for learning it (people came from different countries and some of us had never used it before). Personally, I didn’t like it. Maybe because it feels extrange if you aren’t good doing it, maybe because it was my first time or because I’m not a physical player. I don’t know. By the way, nearly anybody used it. We prefere to solve the problems in a less physically.

Ars Amandi

They didn’t use Ars Amandi but they were inspired by it to create a way to approaching each other. They use the code “green”, “yellow” and “red” for indicating if you can increase the level of the relation or not. They encourage us to put it inside a sentence for being less intrusive with the game, but I’m not sure it worked well. Sometimes it was confusing.

Even though, making a workshop and knowing that we have a security code for it, made us feel comfortable with personal intercourse. If fact, without really using it, I had some of the best solved sexual relations I’ve ever had in a larp. They wasn’t sex for sex, they meant something to the character and they truly created a link between the couple.

Times flow

As I already explained in the workshop, the time flows in a non-realistic way. I found the idea very potent. It improves the larp. However, the workshop related to this has to be improved so the awkward situations could be avoided in a better way.

The Shadow caves

I truly love that technique. The Shadow cave was an in-game space where you could go and take a drug that make you have visions. Before going, you should ask somebody to go with you and guide you inside your hallucinations. Your character could share its concerns with the others so they can help him/her. The other character could chose if they are going to help or maybe do something bad to you. Once you take the drugs, everything that the others (that puts on a mask for non-being themselves) said is real for you. Therefore, as the other character, you could use the technique to implant new memories, help with traumas…

I could use the Shadow caves twice during the larp. For the nature of my character (I was an anchor), I didn’t take the drugs but I wanted to help the others with their experiences. It was an amazing experience.

The other caves

In the Other Caves, the truly nature of your character emerge. So, if you go with somebody and you secretly hates him/her, you should act as a hater inside the cave. It was very useful to deep into the real emotions of your character and his/her relations. Inside the cave, you cannot talk and you should act in a primary way (you can make primitive sounds).

I really wanted to test it but I hadn’t the time for going there. Even though, other character that used them had a very good feedback about the experience.

The waters divine

The Waters Divine was the name for the Hammam. We could use the hammam for four hours on Friday and Saturday afternoon. When you go to the Waters Divine, they have to change you in one or other way. Inside, the characters meditate together, help to improve the other’s experience… Some of the most potent feelings of the larp where inside it.

The archetypes and the character sheets

In La Sirena Varada, the character sheets were pre-done, but you had huge liberty to adaptate your character following the advice of your organizator. They use some archetypes based on the theatre play to help the equilibrium of the game design. I don’t want to say a lot about them but you can have the explanation here (http://somnia-larp.wix.com/lasirenavarada#!tools/c11rf).

The development

In La Sirena Varada, you should go into the madness, embracing it. And it was like that. I don’t want to explain a lot about my character or my personal experience and I really recommend to live it yourself. The development of the larp was quite sandboxy so it’s a very different experience each time you play it (in our run, there were two players that were repeating it).

Generally, it worked so well. However, I must point a little thing. The first day should be more relaxing, art-centered, and beginning to embrace the madness. The second day, the madness becomes the central part and the characters began to realise that the utopia maybe it’s not an utopia anymore. We arrived easily to that point but I think that the organizer’s characters were reinforcing that point too much, so they nearly killed the artistic expression and the joy of the madness. I think I would have liked a final with more excentric madness and not a depressing one. However, I had a beautiful end and I liked the experience a lot.

The arts

For me, arts were the best part of the Larp. Inside La Sirena Varada, you can find a secure environment to let your artistic abilities go. People created amazing poetries, shared their favourite songs with the sound of the guitar, danced, photos, write stories…

I can only congratulate all the participants for their amazing performances and for letting me sharing mi poor bellydance skills. I was so comfortable with it and I could create a piece of dancing out of nothing (and it was, maybe, the best piece I’ve ever danced).

Amazing story that Moon wrote (Mary Borges) to Comrade (my character).



“La Sirena Varada” is not a larp for all publics. And it doesn’t intend to be. Moreover, that is one of the main points of larps as these one. They are created for the adult public, to let you explore new facades of your inner self. They are not fun for fun. You should know in what are you getting into, and I think Somnia has been very clear about it (If you don’t believe it, see “the vision” in the web page).

First of all, you should be interested in exploring deep emotions, craziness and strong relationships. The characters are pre-written but adapted to you, so you could really do what the characters can. However, you should work in them to interiorise them. Don’t be afraid, the workshops help with it. Personally, it’s really important to be an immersionist, enjoying really being another person, for truly enjoying this game.

Secondly, you should like sandbox larps, as you will be required to create stories both for others and for yourself. According to the organizers, it is not a truly sandbox game, as they are already written characters and some plots. For me, it is. As there is not an overall story that make you into it. You have to create it yourself.

Finally, you have to enjoy art or, even better, performing some of it. It is a truly creative Larp. It is designed for letting you create and share your creations. It could be a painting, a poem, a song or, maybe, a dance. The other characters are encouraged to listen and even participate. For me, this is one of the best things of La Sirena.


Amazing shot of the second run by Herman Langland.

If you want to read another review, click here.

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